In Love with an Idiot by Shui Qian Cheng (Chapter 7)

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Jian Suiying followed Li Yu out and, when they passed by the entryway, happened to catch a glance of his face in the bathroom mirror. That one glance just about scared his soul out of his body. He'd just contained his monstrous resentment after convincing himself, with great difficulty, that now was not a strategic time to settle accounts with Li Yu--but one look at his face in the mirror, which looked like the half-pig, half-human creature from Journey to the West, and he exploded.

"Li Yu, you bastard!" He caught Li Yu's neck in a chokehold, harshly strangling him, and slammed the back of Li Yu's knee with his kneecaps. Li Yu had been walking in front of him with the suitcase and was unprepared for this attack, and he was first strangled to the point of breathlessness, before his knees gave out and he was kneeling to the ground.

Jian Suiying cursed loudly, "How dare you ruin my face like this! No way in hell are you walking out of this door alive today!"

Li Yu's face turned green from the lack of oxygen, and he, reaching around Jian Suiying, started hitting at him. Jian Suiying's free hand could only parry one of Li Yu's hands, so Li Yu's other hand he could only allow to greet his face with fists. Unable to bear the pain, his arm slowly loosened.

Li Yu took the opportunity to grab his arm and twist it, hard, and Jian Suiying let out a whimper as the arm was wrenched behind his back. One push from behind, and Li Yu'd pressed him against the wall. Leaning close to his ear, Li Yu said coldly, "Is your butt itching again? Like I said, if you don't mess with me, everything'll be fine between us. If you do mess with me, again, then I don't know just what I'd do to you."

Jian Suiying, too, was a hard-headed sort with bones as hard as diamonds, and he was not afraid of him at all: "You still think everything's gonna be fine between us? Let me tell you right here, kill me if you can or else I'll make you regret this for the rest of your life!"

Li Yu'd been punching sandbags and boxing everyday since he was a little boy, and his hands were like iron pliers capable of shocking strength. As soon as he started exerting force, Jian Suiying's face contorted into an inhuman shape from the pain. Li Yu stared at the hair on the back of his head: thick, dark, short, each strand standing up stiffly and refusing to bend no matter what, much like the man himself.

Li Yu was also the type to get tougher when you cross him, and at this moment, he's resentfully thinking that had Jian Suiying softened his attitude in the beginning, gotten off his high horse, and actually behaved like someone seriously pursuing him, things between the two of them might not have gotten to this irreconcilable state. But now it's too late to say anything. Jian Suiying was right, things would never be fine between them for the rest of their lives.

After being in this state of deadlock for a while, Li Yu felt that he had calmed down so he let go, opened the door, and said, "If you still want to make trouble, let's do it outside. Else, leave."

He picked up the suitcase and walked towards the stairs.

The two of them had no face using the elevator with such "dignified" appearances, and neither could they walk out through the lobby. Li Yu had arranged for the driver to wait for him at the back door, and they just needed to get down the stairs.

Their hotel was on the fourth floor. Getting down to the first floor usually took a little less than a minute, but Jian Suiying's now struggling to put forth even a single step--he couldn't even straighten his legs, and every step sent him wobbling. The physical aftermath of violent sex was very obvious--not to mention Jian Suiying, who'd never suffered anything like that before, even those most experienced couldn't handle a fight to the death followed by that sort of torture. His lower half hurt so bad, but he didn't want Li Yu to see it, so he gritted his teeth and walked down with his back straight.

Discreetly observing this uncomfortable state, which he tried hard to conceal, Li Yu finally felt a trace of guilt rise up in his heart.

After making it down one floor, Li Yu couldn't stand this anymore. He put the suitcase on the ground and, looking at Jian Suiying, said: "Here, I'll carry you on my back."

Jian Suiying glanced at him as if he thought him insane and continued walking down on his own.

Li Yu went around to his side and stretched out a hand to support him, but Jian Suiying gave a fierce wave of his hand and tried to shove him. Used to this by now, Li Yu avoided the attempt with a quick move sideways.

Jian Suiying had been in an unstable position with one foot above and the other below, and, as he wasn't very grounded in the first place, he completely lost his center of gravity with this move from Li Yu and tumbled downwards.

Li Yu quickly wrapped his arms around him and scooped him up. Jian Suiying was too heavy, so Li Yu could only have him lean against the wall to temporarily stabilize him. This position put their faces very close to each other. So close, they could almost feel the heat of each other's breathing, and Li Yu's face started heating up again.

Jian Suiying, once again, got embarrassed and said in a rude voice, "Where the hell are you touching? You hadn't had enough?"

Li Yu quickly released the hold on his waist and said angrily, "I just wanted to help."

"Who gives a crap about your help, it's not as if I don't have legs of my own." he gave him a shove anyway and awkwardly continued downstairs. Li Yu had no choice but to follow behind, suitcase in hand, in case he'd slip and fall to his death.

It took them nearly ten minutes to get down the four-story building.

After arriving downstairs, the two of them immediately got into the car, and Jian Suiying let out a long breath of relief. He's hurting all over and sleep deprived--really not in the mood to speak. He closed his eyes as soon as he got in the car.

With Jian Suiying looking as he did, he couldn't head back to Beijing right away. To be honest, though, with this face? Jian Suiying didn’t even want to leave his room.

Li Yu had arranged for him to stay in a sea-view hotel. He couldn't be seen either since Jian Suiying had "brought him back to Beijing" along with him on the phone, so he just stayed in the same hotel.

There were still a good couple of days left in the National Day vacation, and Jian Suiying planned to nurse his face back to a not-quite-as-terrifying state before heading back.

After arriving at the hotel, Jian Suiying first told Li Yu to find a doctor and afterwards, in a daze, fiddled with his phone.

Usually he'd get a quick reply whenever he sent a message to Xiao Lin Zi. Never had he waited this long before. Could it be that the scene from yesterday literally scared him silly? No way, right? Did anyone in the family not know he's gay? He remembered bringing a classmate home to do that with back when he was Xiao Lin Zi's age, and he even bumped into the kid by accident and gave him a beating afterwards. That was pretty traumatic, yet he still turned out fine, right?

Could it be that he had a harder time accepting this because Li Yu was his friend?

Jian Suiying thought about this for a long time and, in the end, felt a little guilty. Although he didn't like this younger brother of his, he knew he's bent all the way and won't straighten up in this lifetime, and that the Jian family depended on Jian Suilin to carry on the family name. Back then, he'd only given him a beating because he was afraid that the kid, in his young and impressionable age, would learn the wrong thing from him. His being like this was already a disgrace to the family, and if he's to lead his younger brother down this path, too, he's afraid the ancestors would cast down a flash of lightning and kill him on the spot. That's why Jian Suiying had never again brought anyone home and never allowed Jian Suilin to come into contact with any of those random paramours of his. He'd like Jian Suilin to take after him in everything else, just not this.

After toiling over this, he still made a phone call in the end. He needed to give him a talking to.

The phone rang for a long time before getting picked up, and from the other side came Jian Suilin's tired voice: "Brother..."

"Huh? What's going on, still sleeping?"

"I drank some alcohol."

Jian Suiying connected the dots in his head: "With Li Yu?"

Jian Suilin was silent.

Jian Suiying "hmph"ed and then said: "So about yesterday..."

"Brother." Jian Suilin interrupted him, "Do you actually like Li Yu?"

With things as they are now, he couldn't put Li Yu's name in the same sentence as "like" even if someone was pointing a gun to his head. Although he had, indeed, liked Li Yu very much before, he couldn't say anything about the grievances between them, so he could only vaguely say: "You know what I'm like. This is my own business, don't think too much about it."

Jian Suilin suddenly said fervidly, "But brother, Li Yu doesn't like you."

Those words hit Jian Suiying right where it hurt, and he said harshly, "Only brats like you talk about 'like' and 'not like' all day. I... Forget it, you won't understand even if I told you. Just forget about yesterday, it's not a big deal."

Jian Suilin was silent for a while: "Brother, what you're saying is you're not serious either, right?"

His questions were starting to annoy Jian Suiying. Right now he'd get a stomach full of anger every time someone mentioned Li Yu, and yet he had to discuss pretentious things like "like" or "not like" with a little idiot who didn't know what he's talking about. Like he had time for that.

"You think I talk out of my ass or something? I already told you last time, don't drink if you can't hold your liquor. Seriously, look at you, rambling like an old grandma after getting some alcohol in you. Since when did you get a say in my business?"

Jian Suilin's voice sounded a lot more sober, and he immediately said: "Brother, don't be angry, I just don't think you two are good together. Li Yu he..."

"You're. Still. Talking!"

Xiao Lin Zi immediately fell silent: "Brother, don't be angry, why is your voice hoarse, drink more water..."

Jian Suiying thoroughly searched his memories and realized that Xiao Lin Zi hadn't been this emotional in a long time. Irritated, he said, "Big fucking deal, why are you so psycho about this? You've never seen people smooch before? Fucking hell."

Jian Suilin hesitantly said: "Brother, don't be angry, anger is bad for your body."

Jian Suiying snorted out of his nose, "Did you read the text I sent you?"

"Yeah, I did."

"And you can't be bothered to reply?"

"You called right as I was going to."

"Bullshit, you think your brother's an idiot or something?"

Jian Suilin said in a wronged voice: "Really. When have I dared to not reply to a text from you?"

"Hmm. Well, tidy yourself up and contact Li Xuan on your own. Get a good look at the land and take lots of photos, and then report back to me."

"Okay."

"That's it, then. Come back when you feel like it."

"...Brother, d-did you really bring Li Yu back to Beijing with you? Are you two together now?"

"You fucking done or not?"

Jian Suilin didn't dare to continue.

Jian Suiying hung up the phone even more irritated than before. Why was talking so difficult? Now even Xiao Lin Zi knew Li Yu didn't like him. This was so embarrassing. Thinking back to the past couple of days, Jian Suiying really couldn't come up with any other word to describe this situation other than embarrassing. Extremely embarrassing.

Life was so fucking fucked up!

Jian Suiying couldn't leave the hotel room, and his whole body hurt so bad that he didn't want to move. Thus, half lying on the bed, his mind began to bubble with a vat of questionable ideas.

After a bit of thinking, he picked up the phone in his room and started dialing the front desk. One second he ordered food, then another second wine--the best wine they had--and even a foot massage after he got full. In summary, he went through all the expensive services on the five-star hotel's service list and had his way with every single one of them. He knew Li Yu had a lot of pocket money but, being a teenager, he couldn't possibly have that much, and oh watch him bleed the brat dry. The sun had set by the time he finished doing all this, and Jian Suiying got so bored he fell asleep with a tilt of his head.

In his half asleep state, he suddenly heard someone calling for him.

Drowsily, he opened his eyes and saw Li Yu standing at the head of his bed.

"What?"

Li Yu's not looking amicable: "It's not even that late and you're sleeping like this. The person from Qinhuangdao couldn't get through to you on the phone, so he called me."

Jian Suiying yawned and looked at his phone. It was only a little after 8 o'clock in the evening, and there were two missed calls on the phone screen. He was actually so deep in sleep that he didn't hear them.

"Tell me about the situation."

"He said that there's been progress. Now they only need some information from you before transferring the construction of this project to someone else."

Jian Suiying quickly cleared his head and dialed back.

The two of them talked on the phone for not even ten minutes before Jian Suiying hung up, very satisfied. Then, very naturally, he started ordering Li Yu around: "You have already handled parts of this project. Go prepare the materials."

Li Yu scrunched his eyebrows: "When do you want them?"

"The sooner the better."

"Every department is on vacation now, so I could only get them done after the holidays."

Jian Suiying glared at him: "Of course I know it had to be after the holidays. The sooner after the holidays, the better."

Li Yu's face also darkened, and he turned to leave.

"Where are you going?"

"Do I have to report every step of my itinerary to you?"

"What, you think you can just throw me in a hotel and be done with it?"

"Then what do you want? Aren't you living the high life over here?"

Jian Suiying sneered: "What, you miss your money? You think you get to do me for free?"

Every time Jian Suiying mentioned this incident he'd feel uncomfortable all over, and he glared at him: "So you're selling your body? That is what you said yourself."

"Even if I'm selling my body, at least I'd be doing it willingly, which would still better than getting raped by the likes of you. I'm telling you, if you're selling yourself out there you'd be seriously lucky to get a customer like me--you get paid and get off. Getting a little virgin like yourself who don't know shit about fucking besides jackhammering all over the place, on the other hand...would the result of a blood curse for eight lifetimes [1 - the result of a blood curse for eight lifetimes: just know that it means really unlucky.]."

Li Yu's face alternated through different colors and, with a trembling voice, he said, "Jian Suiying, you truly have no sense of shame."

"Even if I am shameless, at least I'm better than a ra--"

"Enough!" Li Yu said angrily, "If you say that word again, I..."

"At least I'm better than a rapist like you. There, I said it. What, are you going to rape me again?"

Li Yu jumped on him, pushed him down onto the bed, and looked down at him, enraged.

Jian Suiying pretended to be calm as he looked straight into his eyes.

The atmosphere between the two of them had been very strange ever since yesterday's incident. In addition to the strong animosity, there was now an unavoidable sense of sexual tension.

Li Yu could feel Jian Suiying's warm breath on the tip of his nose, and there seemed to be a certain heat in Jian Suiying's eyes, making his body unnaturally hot.

He couldn't be like this!

Li Yu hated that he couldn't control his own body.

No matter how much he loathed the guy, he had to admit that Jian Suiying was one with a very masculine charm. Having this person all to himself was as addictive as a drug; it's been a day, yet he still hadn't recovered from that frenzied, wanton expedition. Pleasure that made one shiver, feelings of superiority from completely subjugating another...he couldn't forget them, no matter what.

Right when Li Yu was so nervous that his lips trembled, Jian Suiying suddenly hooked an arm around his neck and took those lips in his. Li Yu heard a sound go off in his head,  and he lost all ability to respond.

Jian Suiying kissed him for a long time and then, after he had enough, bit his tongue.

The pain woke Li Yu up. He wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth and stared at Jian Suiying, uncomfortable and flustered.

Lazily, Jian Suiying said, "Scram."

Li Yu really wanted to slap the guy but he managed to hold back.

"Why are you just standing there and not leaving? Hadn't had enough? Take off your pants and get up here, then, and I'll show you a good time."

Li Yu grabbed his arm and twisted it hard, turning his entire body over and planting him face down on the bed.

Jian Suiying's now very nervous about this position, and he immediately yelled anxiously, "What do you want to do? Shit, you still dare?"

Li Yu got closer to him. So close, his chest was pressing against Jian Suiying's back.

Jian Suiying could feel his labored breathing, the violent heave of his chest, and how he seemed to be holding back a lot of anger. He heard Li Yu say, slowly: "Jian Suiying, I'm warning you, this is the last time. Don't provoke me again. ."

Jian Suiying wanted to tell him off, but as soon as he'd opened his mouth, Li Yu quickly pulled a few napkins out of a paper box by the bed and stuffed them into his mouth, and then left him to walk off on his merry away.

Jian Suiying looked at his retreating back, an increasingly vicious look in his eyes.

Jian Suiying didn't see Li Yu again for the remainder of his time at Beihai.

After the swell in his face died down to a state that wasn't quite as terrifying, he went back by himself a couple days before the end of the holiday break.

Heaps of work quickly overwhelmed him and kept him busy for a while. It successfully distracted him, otherwise he'd be gnashing his teeth day and night in hatred of Li Yu.

However, since that day, a new short-term goal was added to Jian Suiying's life in addition to the usual making cash and having fun--and that was to take back from Li Yu everything he owed him. Just watch, when he gets the opportunity he'll definitely fuck that brat so hard he wouldn't be able to get out of bed for three days. He swore to God--he's not stopping until this was accomplished.

Unfortunately such opportunities have been truly hard to come by since. Li Yu pretty much stopped appearing in front of him; he practically never showed up at the company, regardless of what assignments Jian Suiying'd give him. Obviously, he's avoiding him.

The days gradually cooled. More than a month has passed since that incident, and Jian Suiying'd always felt an emptiness in his heart. One day, for no reason at all, he just wanted to see Li Yu, even if only to talk some trash to him. And thus, crazily enough, he drove to Li Yu's school, went round and round that massive campus, and, in the end, got lost.

He himself didn't even know where the he had drove the car; it seemed like he'd gone deep into a forest, and, all of a sudden, there was a sharp decrease in the number of people on the road, with only the occasional young couple flirting on roadside stools. He didn't bother interrupting them. If it weren't for the fact that his eyes were glued to people passing by, hoping that he'd just so happen to find Li Yu, he wouldn't be in this state of not being able to find the way he came from, whatnot with his sense of direction.

There was no road ahead, so he parked to the side and got out of the car.

It was getting dark, and the surroundings were extraordinarily quiet. Such peaceful spaces with fresh air were truly rare to come by after being in the suffocating city of Beijing for a long time, and thus Jian Suiying had the idea of taking a walk after dinner. Along a narrow, winding path, he sauntered slowly into the woods.

After only a few minutes of sauntering he couldn't take it anymore. Consider him educated on why there were so few people in these woods. Damn it, coming in was like opening a buffet for the mosquitoes.

He had no choice but to leave and, with each step, he grew more and more irritated. What did you even come all this way here for? He thought to himself, to feed mosquitoes like an idiot?

He took out his mobile phone and dialed Li Yu's number before he'd regret it.

The call was answered quickly, but it wasn't Li Yu's voice.

"Hello?"

Jian Suiying said "Hello" back confusedly, thinking that he'd called the wrong number.

"Hey, I'm Li Yu's roommate, he's taking a shower right now. Whom am I speaking with?"

"Tell him that my surname is Jian, I'm... I'm his boss."

"Oh, I know you, hello hello." After saying this he turned away from the phone and shouted, "Li Yu, it's your boss."

Jian Suiying pricked his ears and tried his best to listen, only to hear that Li Yu said something in return but not what exactly.

The person said again, "He's asking what's the matter?"

"I'm at your school... I have something to talk about with him, tell him to come out after the shower."

"Okay, I'll tell him that. Where are you?"

"……the entrance."

"Which entrance?"

Why the hell are you asking for so many details? Are we dating or something? Jian Suiying thought to himself. He could only perfunctorily reply, "East Gate."

"Okey-dokey, I'll let him find you when he comes out."

"When he comes out, tell him to call me back first."

"No problem."

Thus Jian Suiying sat on a stone bench and waited for his call. In the end he'd waited on and on and on until half an hour had passed and still, nothing.

Jian Suiying knew that Li Yu wouldn't be coming today, and his heart was filled with both disillusionment and indignance. He made a complete fool of himself today: he came to this crappy place, lost his way, and didn't even get to see him after feeding the mosquitoes for such a long time. Could he be more stupid?

He got up and was about to leave.

Just a few steps, and his phone suddenly rang. Jian Suiying's heart gave a violent jump, and, nervously fishing out his phone, he looked at the screen. Right on the screen was Li Yu's name.

No words could describe what Jian Suiying felt at that very moment. At that time, he thought: “Just for returning my call, I’ll wear a condom when I top you in the future.”

He picked up the call, and Li Yu's still cold voice sounded: "Where are you? Why can’t I see you?"

"Huh?" Without thinking, Jian Suiying started looking around him. No one had passed in a long time, and if someone was to bury him alive beneath these trees there probably wouldn't be an eyewitness.

"Didn't you say you were at the east gate? I'm here."

Only then did Jian Suiying remember the lie he’d made up on the spot: "I'm not at the East Gate."

Li Yu got a little annoyed: "Then which gate are you at?"

"I’m not at any gate."

Li Yu gritted out, syllable by syllable: "Jian, Sui, Ying." and hung up on him right there.

He quickly dialed back without a second thought. Only after the sixth or seventh attempt did Li Yu pick up.

"What, still not done playing with me yet?"

Jian Suiying said crossly: "Fuck you, I’m not playing with you. Can't you finish listening to what people have to say first?"

"……Say it then."

"I'm in some random-ass corner at your school. I'm lost. I don't know where I am."

"Then why did you say that you were at the East Gate? It took me fifteen minutes to get here from the dorm."

"Didn't I tell you to call me back after your shower? If you’d called me back none of this would have happened."

Li Yu rolled his eyes: "Why are you at my school? If you have nothing important to say then go back by yourself."

"What, I can't come without something important to say? It’s not as if you need a ticket or anything."

Li Yu snorted through his nose: "Just go back."

"Wait! I can't find my way back, y-you come pick me up."

"How can I go pick you up when you yourself don't know where you are?"

"I'm next to some trees."

"Our campus has trees everywhere."

Jian Suiying was furious: "I don't care, you come pick me up right now! If you don't come, then... I'll call your brother. If I can't make you do it, then let’s see if your brother can!"

Li Yu gritted his teeth and said, "Jian Suiying, you son of a bitch."

Jian Suiying hummed smilingly and said, "Come here right away."

"I don't know where you are!"

Jian Suiying quickly described where he was right now, and after some long, tedious communication, Li Yu finally got a general idea of his location and said, “You’re way too far from me, I’d need to go back and get the car. Wait a bit. "

"Hurry up."

And thus another half an hour passed. Jian Suiying had ran out of ways to deal with the mosquitoes and was no longer in the mood to breathe fresh air, so he could only stay in his sports car.

Right as he was about to fall asleep, he was suddenly awakened by light reflected in the rearview mirror. Looking back, a Mercedes-Benz Jeep had driven over and stopped beside him.

Jian Suiying opened the door and got out of the car. Li Yu also got out of his car. The two of them stared at each other from across their automobiles like in one of those drug deals on TV, and Jian Suiying thought they looked ridiculous.

Even though this place was a bit remote, prestigious universities were, indeed, something special, and street light coverage extended even to these faraway corners, so it wasn't dark. Jian Suiying looked at Li Yu's cute little face under the light and realized that, after a month or so of not seeing him, he seemed to have grown more handsome. His skin was so smooth that light seemed to bounce off of it, and Jian Suiying felt oddly annoyed.

Li Yu closed the car door and walked towards him. Stopping two meters away, he stared at him with scrunched eyebrows: "What exactly are you here for?"

"To check up on how you’re doing and to remind you, by the way, that you still owed me a fucking."

A look of annoyance appeared on Li Yu's face: "Do you have nothing better to do besides thinking about such useless matters all day? Get in the car, I'll take you out of here, don't waste my time."

And he turned around to get back in the car.

Jian Suiying was angry. He hadn't came here today with the intention of picking a fight with Li Yu–he just wanted to take a look at the kid after not seeing him for a month–but he hadn't expected him to be this disrespectful. He rushed up to Li Yu in one single stride and Li Yu, being prepared, turned around and raised his arm to cover his chest.

Jian Suiying had no choice but to stop, and he said very unhappily, "You got your fill of me and then left smacking your lips. What, you think that's the end of it?"

Li Yu stared and said, "You want to do me? Dream on."

"Why can't I do you? Li Yu, you owe me. Plain and simple."

Li Yu scolded: "Idiot." and again turned around to leave.

Jian Suiying grabbed his arm and started pulling.

Li Yu felt irritation rise up from within him. He shouldn't have came today–what went wrong with his head for him to actually come see this guy? What good could come from seeing someone like this?

Physical contact was unavoidable with them pulling at each other like this. Li Yu kept on backing away to avoid touching him, as if he was some sort of disease, and this made Jian Suiying’s face red with anger.

Li Yu shouted, "What the hell are you doing? Are you a fucking mad dog? Getting...that wasn’t enough for you? Clinging to me like this!"

Jian Suiying raged, "So what if I'm clinging to you? I dare you dig a hole and bury me alive–I think this right here is a fine place! The body won't even be found for a good while!"

"What nonsense are you talking about!"

Jian Suiying pushed him hard against the car door and took his lips in his. As they say, first time strangers and second time friends, and Li Yu should have grown numb to his advances after being indecently kissed by Mr. Hooligan Jian about three or four times, give or take--yet this time, it was like he'd been struck by lightning, and, after freezing for a second, he began resisting extremely violently.

Jian Suiying tugged at his lips and said, "Why the hell won’t you let me kiss you a few times? You've done even more horrific things to me, yet you won't let me do this much to you. You think everything good in this world belongs to you or something?"

Li Yu's face turned red: "Let go of me, you..."

Between the pushing and the shoving, the two bodies kept on colliding and rubbing against each other.

Jian Suiying suddenly froze while they tugged at each other, and so did Li Yu. For a while, the atmosphere between the two of them were extremely strange, until Jian Suiying burst out laughing and teased, particularly straightforwardly: "Xiao Li Zi, you hard?"

Li Yu wanted to dig himself a hole and die. He lowered his head, shook off Jian Suiying's arm, and opened the door, about to get into the car.

Very unfortunately, he’d lost his head in anger and forgot that he had just came around from the other side of the car, and that now he was opening the co-pilot's door. Like a duck to water, Jian Suiying threw him onto the seat at once.

Li Yu felt something crack in him.

Those memories, which he’d tried so hard to forget in the past month yet often appeared in his dreams, suddenly flooded his head.

He knew he shouldn't have came to see Jian Suiying today.

He tried to back away, but with so little space he was quickly stopped in his tracks by the joystick. Although the car was quite spacious, it was still too little space for two adult men. Li Yu had nowhere to hide, because no matter where he moved he had to touch Jian Suiying, and so he could only end up, to his own shame, having Jian Suiying's hands all over him.

Nostrils bathing in the refreshing scent of Li Yu's body, Jian Suiying rubbed his smooth skin, feeling the longing grow in his heart.

Li Yu's whole body tensed and his face was so red, it looked as if blood would come out. He should have kicked Jian Suiying off of him yet his body, against his own will, slightly arched into Jian Suiying's palm.

Jian Suiying secretly rejoiced. He knew all too well the thoughts of young boys who'd just lost their V card–which man didn't? After thirsting and fantasizing for ten-something years with only little yellow [2 - yellow in China is associated with pornographic material, so just replace yellow with porn here.] books and little yellow films as solace, once they get a taste of the real thing they most certainly develop a taste for it and couldn’t help themselves. No matter how proper a man looked, once he took off his clothes that’s all there was to him.

Of course, the main reason was that Li Yu had a handsome man like him for his first time. Jian Suiying's feelings toward this was complicated--resentful yet a little proud-- and they tore him apart.

To be honest, if Li Yu was serious about him and, one day, felt like being the one on top, Jian Suiying’d feel awkward but he just might agree. Li Yu was his favorite by far, and this kind of thing wasn’t a big deal in the circle at all. After all, how many gays had never been on the bottom at least once in their lives? He’ll just take this as a way to spice things up. What he hated was that he hadn't gotten a taste of Li Yu yet Li Yu'd gotten a taste of him, and it was rape to boot. This kind of shame was something he could never let go of for the rest of his life.

The only way to soothe his wounded self-esteem would be to take Li Yu down, which came back to his original intention. In any case, he’s definitely not letting Li Yu go.

Jian Suiying's mouth took a hold of Li Yu's neck and gently rubbed the small piece of skin between his teeth, saying muffledly: "You poser."

Li Yu felt that his heart was about to jump out out of his chest. Blood from all over his body rushed to his lower abdomen and that part of him was so hard, it hurt. All those words from Jian Suiying sent evil fire coursing through his body, and, letting go of himself, he thought "to hell with it". The hand that had been pushing back changed direction to slide inside Jian Suiying's shirt from behind, running along the smooth, muscular back.

It was when he took the initiative that he had to admit that this was what he truly wanted to do.

Upon submitting to his true desires he completely opened up, no longer dodging prissily, and instead behaved like a man who'd been seduced; his hands wandered across Jian Suiying's body with abandon, his lips pressed against the silhouette of his chin--the emerging short stubble aroused him greatly, reminding him soberly that he was making out with a man, which turned him on even more.

He was already like this, and not much more needed to be said about Jian Suiying, who whole-heartedly drowned himself in the flirtatious caresses.

After some fumbling around, he found the seat-adjustment button and flattened the seat at once. The available space increased in an instant, and he pressed Li Yu beneath him. Like two hungry beasts, they were all entwined limbs, grinding, kisses from ears to temples, desperately trying to get more from each other.

The car door hadn't even been closed all the way, yet the both of them burned from the temperature in the car...

Flushing red all over, Jian Suiying raised his neck slightly and moaned in a low voice.

Li Yu opened his lustful eyes and what he chanced upon was Jian Suiying's slender neck and his Adam's apple bouncing up and down. He swallowed, and, out of some unknown desire, opened his mouth to capture that protuberance in his mouth, sucking slowly at it.

Jian Suiying let out a sound through his nose and his whole body trembled as if electricity had ran through it. Feeling a little sore in his back, which had been standing upright this whole time, he fell on Li Yu's body lopsidedly.

Li Yu licked the outline of his ear and his cheeks, sniffing at the good smell from his neck, and both hands stroked Jian Suiying's body without pause. It was as if this wasn't his first time doing this kind of thing; maybe he’d already fantasized about this countless times.

Neither of them said a word during this because it’d be truly too embarrassing to talk. It was not until Li Yu's sliding his hand into Jian Suiying's pants that Jian Suiying got a sudden awakening.

"Fuck, what are you doing?" He grasped Li Yu's hand, which had wanted to dig in further.

The two looked at each other, and there was a trace of awkwardness in both their lust-filled eyes, especially Li Yu.

His eyes had a drunk-like haziness to it, and, at this moment, there was also a displeased confusion in them, as if he’d been enjoying a delicacy but had been rudely interrupted. Jian Suiying's face was flushed all over; his gaze was like watery vapours; the hair on his forehead had gotten messy and fell in front of his eyes; and there were fine beads of sweat on the tip of his nose. Li Yu looked at him and could feel his tyrannical side being aroused, and all he wanted to do was to press Jian Suiying beneath him and give this man, who had spikes all over his body, yet was maddeningly sexy, a good, hard fucking.

Li Yu placed a hand on the back of Jian Suiying's head and pressed his face closer to him, licked his lips, and said, "Why did you come to see me?"

Jian Suiying stuck out his tongue to entangle with his and said softly, "I said, I want to fuck you."

Li Yu suddenly and fiercely kissed him, thrusting his tongue in roughly, stirring without skill. Jian Suiying guided him with his tongue and brought out a slippery and ***** kiss.

Taking advantage of his distraction from the kiss, Li Yu deftly turned over and pinned Jian Suiying beneath him.

Immediately realizing this, Jian Suiying yelled: "I give you an inch and you want to go a mile? You want to force me again?"

Li Yu looked at him, panting heavily and eyes full of barely-held back longing. His lower half rubbed against his thigh impatiently, as if he’s a little lost on what to do.

Jian Suiying could feel Li Yu's thing pressing against him, and he knew that this little virgin was having it hard.

But no matter how hard Li Yu had it, he had no reason to give himself up. He knew he couldn't beat Li Yu in a fight and it’d be impossible to force him, so, even though it was a bit of a drag, he pushed Li Yu off by his shoulder and said: “If you don’t want to do it then whatever. Get up, I'm leaving."

Li Yu was so angry that his teeth started chattering.

Jian Suiying, this bastard, came all the way over here and practically set him on fire, but then he’s just going to dust himself off and casually leave? When you toy with a monkey you’d give him a banana, but all he got was a whiff of the banana through the peel. Was there a worse person in this world than him right now?

Li Yu put an arm over his chest, blocking his way up, and said angrily: "Jian Suiying, you bastard, leaving right after you’d provoked me! Do you just not want to see me live a peaceful life? If you didn’t want to do it, w-why the hell did you come see me!"

"Who said I didn't want to do it? You let me be the one on top, and I promise you’ll feel even better than just now."

"Don't even think about it."

Jian Suiying glanced at him contemptuously: "I really don't fucking understand the way straight men's mind work. You're obviously enjoying yourself, but I bring this up and you start squawking. What, you get to put your dick in me but I can’t put my dick in you? It’s not like either of us lacks a penis. Fucking hell, you think I’m an idiot? Leave, I don’t have time to play with you."

Li Yu pressed into him with immobilizing force and stared at him, eyes red: "Don't leave... You, you are not allowed to leave."

Jian Suiying looked at his state, feeling that hard, hot thing pressing against his thigh, and suddenly felt that Li Yu was pitiful. This child was probably battling himself: he couldn’t force him–he wouldn't be able to get over his own conscience without alcohol–yet if he did nothing something just might break in him.

Jian Suiying thought to himself: Now this was really something. How about I just enjoy it for a bit?

Li Yu's also aware that this state of his was really embarrassing, but he was aroused, how could he be calm? He gently traced the lines of Jian Suiying's face, hoping that the touch would put out his fire.

To be honest, Jian Suiying wasn't feeling too hot either: that thing of his was still standing stiffly, and had no place to vent. It's just that he's more experienced and can endure a little better than Li Yu, a young virgin who was 18 or 19 years old.

But Li Yu was now leaning on him like this, lighting up little sparks everywhere he went, burning him up and making him itch, and leaving him even more hungry and thirsty than before. This short conversation didn't last long before the two were entangled again, but now these few caresses were an itch scratched from beyond the clothes, becoming more and more difficult to bear.

Li Yu finally lost his mind. He reached into Jian Suiying's pants again and pulled at it, hard.

Jian Suiying obviously couldn’t have this, so he started tearing into him again, running on Li Yu with his mouth.

The space in the car was limited and neither of them could really use their full capabilities, and Jian Suiying's trousers fell to his knees with a few tugs.

Although Li Yu was inexperienced, Jian Suiying couldn't help feeling his genuine desire to please him. This was the first time that this had happened since the beginning of time, and Jian Suiying immediately felt his heart soften.

Li Yu sensitively detected this softening of attitude and immediately took this opportunity to scoot up to his ear, saying lightly, "Brother Jian, let me do it."

This tender and even a little coquettish remark disarmed Jian Suiying in an instant. He was already a little aroused from Li Yu's teasing and, although he didn't want to admit it, really didn’t want to see Li Yu suffer like this. Thus, confusedly, he decided to indulge whatever Li Yu wanted to do.

Li Yu felt a sneaky satisfaction. He pretty much figured out the way Jian Suiying's head worked: this was a soft-hearted person who didn’t take kindly to force; the more you try to force him the more stubborn he'd become, but if you go the soft route, it'd have surprising outcomes.

In this respect, Li Yu was very different from Jian Suiying. He knows when to adjust his strategy to achieve his goals; he wasn't as arrogant as Jian Suiying who, even if he'd been in the wrong, would never compromise for the sake of his male pride and self-esteem.

All of Li Yu's knowledge regarding love between men thus far had been obtained from the Internet. The first time he was drunk and angered out of his mind, so he ended up not using any of it. This time, he really wanted to do well and not have Jian Suiying call him an inexperienced virgin again. It's just that he didn't have any actual combat experience, so he's a little lost at the moment.

Jian Suiying somewhat regretted this careless sacrifice, but seeing Li Yu sweating profusely he couldn't kick him away, even after a few attempts to harden his heart. Thus, he could only grit his teeth and say, "I have a condom in my wallet."

Li Yu was stunned for a moment. Then, he took the wallet out from his pocket...

The two of them were like copulating beasts, mixing into each other. Deliberately suppressed moans would occasionally come from the car, the temperature kept on rising, and the desire seemed to burn both the body and the soul.

The heavy car shook from their violent movements.

Li Yu felt that he must have gone insane, and that's why he's making love to Jian Suiying with abandon right on the campus where someone might pass by at any time. But this kind of insurmountable pleasure rendered all external things insignificant and meaningless, and he was unable to think, only to sink himself in deeper.

Uncontrollable gasps and screams burst forth from Jian Suiying’s throat. The numb pain from being forcibly penetrated had gradually subsided and was replaced by a strange, indescribable feeling that made his whole body itch as if ten thousand ants had crawled across him; the mind-numbing pleasure clung to his spine and completely took over his nervous system, giving him the illusion that he was about to drown in this joy of fish and water [3 - joy of fish and water: means the act of sex].

Moments of clarity would occasionally flash across Jian Suiying's desire-addled brain, and the only thing he could think about was how fortunate it was that the car door was not closed all the way, or else if they were to pass out in the car they'd end up all over social media, which would be very embarrassing.

Neither said anything after they finished, as they pulled their pants back up and cleaned up the place. 

Jian Suiying glanced at the luminescent white liquid on the leather seats and felt very complicated.

Li Yu tidied his clothes and awkwardly wiped the seat with a piece of paper. Jian Suiying turned his face to one side and tried, with stiff fingers, to tie his tie.

This was an action he performed everyday but today, for whatever reason, it was as if his fingers were frozen solid and couldn't properly function. Angry, he pulled off his tie completely.

Li Yu glanced at him and said, "I'll do it." and was about to grab it as he spoke.

Jian Suiying said snappishly: "Let it be, who wears a tie in the middle of the night anyway?"

Li Yu pursed his lips: "Let's put it on. Some buttons on the front are gone, and everything will hang wide open without it."

Jian Suiying swung open the car door and made a move to get out: "So what if I leave everything open." Only half-wearing his shoes and the car being too high, he immediately fell downward.

Li Yu hugged him by the waist and whispered: "Why are you so angry out of nowhere?"

Why was he so angry? Jian Suiying was angry because he failed to resist the little vixen! He came all the way here, ended up getting lost, and fed the mosquitoes for an hour just to serve himself right to the door. What sort of spirit was this!

Jian Suiying pushed Li Yu away, kicked on his shoes, and stood all tidied up on the ground. He tucked his tie into his pocket and, with two buttons on the front having fallen off, sporadic hickeys could be seen here and there.

Li Yu looked at this and did not like it. He subconsciously did not want others to see Jian Suiying's body. But, thinking of Jian Suiying's attitude just now, he resisted the urge to tie the necktie around him. He gave a "hey" and whispered, "Are you hungry? Let's get a late night snack."

Jian Suiying opened the car door without looking back: "No need. Get me out of this place as soon as possible." And closed the door with a bang.

But then, after some driving around, they still ended up in front of a small Mala Tang shop.

Jian Suiying looked around. Fuck, he's still in their school.

Li Yu got out of his car and knocked on Jian Suiying's car window.

Jian Suiying lowered the window: "What did you bring me here for? I told you I'm not eating anything."

"Get something. You've got to be hungry."

With a sullen expression, Jian Suiying bared his teeth and said: "Don't think too highly of yourself. With that speed of yours? I'm not tired at all."

Li Yu looked at this riled-up state of his and couldn't hold his laughter in: "Look at yourself. You're such a big guy yet you care about winning such pointless arguments? C'mon, get out of the car." He reached into the car and unlocked it with the push of a button. He opened the door, and, after a lot of effort, managed to drag Jian Suiying out.

One glance at the small storefront and his princely complex [4 - princely complex: male version of the princess complex, which is used to describe a girl who's very prissy and demanding--like a princess, hence the name.] began to act up. He scolded in a low voice, "You have some fucking nerve, taking me to eat at this kind of place."

"What's wrong? The food's pretty good." Li Yu looked at Jian Suiying's exposed pectorals and finally couldn't hold back any more. He took the tie out of his trousers pocket and skillfully tied it around his neck.

"What are you doing, I said no." Jian Suiying slapped his hand.

Li Yu really didn't want Jian Suiying to show himself in front of others like this. He smoothed out the front of his shirt and then tied the tie in such a way as to not to reveal the missing buttons. 

It was not until his body was covered that Li Yu was satisfied: "Let's go." Li Yu dragged him to the Mala Tang shop.

Maybe because today was a weekday and it was almost twelve o'clock, there's not a lot of people here, Usually, when business was good, there'd be lines of people. 

Li Yu took a plate and loaded a bunch of things at the door, and then the two of them took a corner seat and sat down.

Jian Suiying side-eyed the washed-up celebrities plastered on the wall and felt that the low plastic stool beneath his buttocks was uncomfortable to sit on no matter how he went about it.

Li Yu looked at his awkward appearance and couldn't help commenting: "Why are you so spoiled?"

"Who you calling spoiled? Worrying about food safety is being spoiled? You nuts or something?"

Li Yu brought a beef ball near his mouth with a stick and said: "It's not like one meal will kill you, what are you so afraid of?"

Jian Suiying squinted at the beef ball for a long time before opening his mouth to reluctantly take it in. 

The flavor was, indeed, pretty good, Jian Suiying thought, no wonder these students with young, impervious digestive systems fancy this place.

Li Yu said with a smile, "Suilin loves the Mala Tang here. Every times he comes to visit me, he'd definitely come here for dinner."

Jian Suiying snorted, noncommittal.

He was, indeed, a little hungry. Finally, with Li Yu's encouragement, he put his head down and began to eat.

By the end, both of them were stuffed. He watched Li Yu hand the auntie a fifty-yuan bill when it was time to pay, and he stared with wide eyes as she actually handed him ten-something yuan back in change.

Never before had someone taken Jian Suiying out for dinner and only spent a little more than thirty yuan, especially considering that this was someone who just finished having sex with him. Words were inadequate to describe what he felt at the moment.

He couldn't exactly say "How dare you only take me to a Mala Tang, which only cost a little more than thirty yuan at a street stall, after you had your fill of me? Are you a fucking shameless scrooge or what?" Nevertheless, he felt a little resentful. Though this might not be the best analogy, but--his transaction price was too damn low.

Wholly unaware, Li Yu said, yawning, "Let's go, I'll see you out."

Jian Suiying glared at him and again slammed the car door closed.

Li Yu looked at him, confused.

Jian Suiying followed Li Yu's car for a few minutes before seeing the gate he came in from.

He stepped on the gas pedal, dashed out of the school gate, and was gone.

Li Yu was a little taken aback, seeing that he left without even a goodbye. Staring at the car's disappearing behind, Li Yu couldn't help licking his lips.

After Jian Suiying got back he felt down for several days.

He still couldn't believe that he'd submit to Li Yu this easily. Getting fucked again was not what shocked him the most--what he was worried about was that he 'd been more serious about Li Yu than he'd initially thought.

He had been staring at the computer screen in a daze when Jian Suilin knocked on the door and came in.

He'd come one or two days a week now. He'd definitely come as long as he had time to spare, and Li Yu ha also changed his normal routine and came in the day before yesterday. Jian Suiying, however, wasn't in the mood to see him.

Jian Suiying turned his mind back to work: "What's the matter?"

"President Jian, here's the information you asked for last time from the Land and Resources Bureau. Here's what can be photocopied, and what couldn't be photocopied or taken away I could only copy by hand. Regarding the remaining blueprints and other classified information, I can head back to get further approval from their leadership if you think it necessary"

"Hmm, put them here. I'll take a look first."

Jian Suilin slowly put down the documents, eyes fixed on Jian Suiying's neck.

Noticing that he hadn't left, Jian Suiying raised his head and asked, "Why are you still here?"

Jian Suilin awkwardly pointed at his own neck: "Brother, you have something here."

Jian Suiying mirrored his actions and remembered that there was a hickey here that'd pop out from time to time.

He said indifferently, "Oh." And pulled up his collar a little.

Leaning across the table, Jian Suilin went ahead and straightened his collar to just barely cover it. His movements were a little stiff, but fortunately it wasn't anything complicated and he completed everything quickly.

Jian Suiying swatted his hand away: "Get back to your work. "

Jian Suilin took a deep breath and said, calmly, "Brother, you haven't been home in a long time. Dad asked you to come back when you have time."

"Hmm. I will, when I have time."

"Brother, thank you for the car."

"Oh, you could have gotten something better."

"That won't be necessary, I'm still in school, after all."

"Well, it's good that you're aware."

"Then I'll head out."

"Xiao Lin Zi."

"Yes?"

"Do you see Li Yu often?"

Jian Suilin was stunned for a while. The scene where Jian Suiying was kissing Li Yu on the beach appeared in his mind, and, after some careful consideration: "We meet occasionally."

Jian Suiying glanced at him: "You have time and money. Hurry up and get a girlfriend."

Clenching and loosening his hand behind his back, Jian Suilin said with a stiff smile, "Brother, what's the meaning of this?"

Jian Suiying blinked. Looking at his nervous expression, he didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What are you thinking, kid? You think I'm afraid of you taking what's mine?"

Jian Suilin had a bit of a complicated expression, and he pursed his lips.

Jian Suiying knew very well that he wouldn't dare, even if there were ten of him. He'd never dare to take what belonged to him, nor would he ever dare to mess with men. Either one of these two things would be enough for Jian Suiying to teach him a lesson.

He was, after all, very confident about Xiao Lin Zi's obedience towards him.

Jian Suiying snorted and said, "Look how scared you are. Loosen up, I don't worry about others wanting what I want. Plus I know that you and Li Yu are just friends. What I mean is you shouldn't be hanging with a bunch of bachelors all day long. It's your youth, won't it be nice to get a girlfriend to talk some sweet nothings to?"

Jian Suilin forced a smile: "I haven't met the right girl."

"Hmm, yeah, you really can’t force these things. Dad gets pretty nervous sometimes, you know--scared that I’ll be a bad influence on you or something. If you get a girlfriend it’ll take the pressure off of me."

Jian Suilin half lowered his eyes and did not speak.

"Okay, off with your work. This week..." Jian Suiying flipped through his schedule, "Friday, I'll go back on Friday."

"Okay, then I'm leaving."

When Jian Suilin made his way to the door, Jian Suiying suddenly stopped him again. He hesitated, before asking: "Do all kids your age like those dirty roadside stalls?"

This question was a sharp change of topic, and Jian Suilin was taken aback for a moment: "Ah...it's okay. Sometimes a large group of people go eat together after the game. It's nice."

Jian Suiying tried to think back to when he was this age, but nothing came up. It had been more or less ten years, after all.

But, anyway, Jian Suilin's answer made him feel a little better. At least he won't worry over pathetic questions like whether Li Yu had treated him poorly or not.

After Jian Suilin left, Jian Suiying gave another sigh. At twenty-seven years of age, he suddenly realized that this may be the first time in his life that he had encountered a so-called relationship problem. With a boy seven or eight years his junior, to boot.

Those awkward, embarrassing, unspeakable feelings... Let's not bring them up.